To push, or not to push, to persevere, or give up into time and all that could, should, ought to be...and yet heart happy brings fruit, joy, meaning, peace too. Testimony's of God in and through a life that's trying to be all given to Him....
To go means value, meaning, completion, significance of all that God has done, and is doing. To not go... will be dissapointing, sad....something lost.
I guess I'm going:)