Talk in writing:)

I spoke at my church this morning. Apparently it will be podcast and you can listen to it at www.northridge.org.au, but for now for your reading pleasure, here you go:)

How has God transformed, brought change and freedom in my life?

So, a little about me. I have lived in London, Hong Kong and Sydney, so a bit of me is in all of those places. I now work with new migrants and help them to settle into life in Australia, which is challenging, rewarding and a lot of fun. I have been at Northridge for just over 6 years, but first started listening to the podcasts while I was in Hong Kong, way before that, after meeting Kath and Phil and talking to them about planning a trip to bring a team from here to Hong Kong for a few weeks.

I have been thinking and praying a lot about what has brought change, freedom, and transformation in my life and in all the brainstorming, and thoughts, it has come down to being based around God’s word, the written and the prophetic in our lives.

If you know about the 5 love languages, there’s acts of service, physical touch, gifts, quality time and words of affirmation, I fall firmly in the quality time category. All the love languages have their place and I hugely value all of them, but quality time is where it’s all at for me. So, quality time with God and close friends is pretty vital in my life. 

One of the things I love about our Heavenly Father is that he made us for relationship. From the beginning, he commands us to Love the Lord our God with all our heart and all our soul and all our mind, with the second being love our neighbors as ourselves. Life is lived from a place of love and community, living, working, doing life together- God, others, us. Quality time with Jesus will often involve a long train trip to and from work, lots of worship music, listening to podcasts, reading books and journaling. Occasionally there’s the lovely treat of having a chat with someone else about what they, or I am learning, which I also love.

Life is meant to be lived in relationship and community. It’s unique, rarely goes to plan but is rich, diverse and our lives are all the better for learning to live together in community, wherever we are at. I find I learn so much from hearing the stories of others, and seeing how God has worked in and through them, or show’s himself to others or calls out the gold he has placed in their lives for his glory.

One of the many things I love about our faith is that it’s living and active. Hebrews 4:11 says that the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow and discerning the thought s and intentions of the heart. 

I love that God still speaks today through the miraculous, through signs, wonders, healings, and speaking to us individually and collectively. I am immensely grateful for the impact that has had on me throughout my life as a Christian. One area that has particularly impacted me has been through the prophetic, whether it’s words, pictures, actual drawn pictures, impressions, you name it. I love the encouragement they bring, the comfort when things are really tough or a confirmation of what’s to come. Whether they seem specifically personal, or more general, they remind me that I am known, loved, that I am not part of a crowd to God. Sometimes they can fall by the wayside, but there are ones that I hold on to for dear life and bring a life of their own to me. Often they point out who I am to God and remind me of how He sees me rather than how I might see me, how I am feeling, or what the circumstances are around me. Often if I want to fall into a heap, or lose my cool over something, those words encourage me to something better, of who God has made me to be, rather than my fallen humanness. 

I love receiving prophetic words, whether those words of knowledge, wisdom, pictures, you name it because whether they fit or don’t, they always, always point me back Jesus. Whether they sit well and make sense or don’t they are always (well, have been in my experience, thankfully) have been encouraging and graciously given. Even if I haven’t understood the word someone has given, I have been able to take it away and ponder it and let it sit and marinade for a while. Time and experience, digging into the Bible will bring clarity and direction, and I can always ask God about it and keep coming back to it.

I was thinking about some of the words that I have been given in recent time that have stood out and brought huge encouragement and motivated me to keep going back to God no matter what. 

Several years ago now a friend turned around to me at church and announced that she had a picture for me. It was out of the blue and wonderfully, she wrote it down for me and I have been able to go back, and go back, and go back to it. She said that she had felt God say: 

I know the plans I have for you.

I have not forgotten.

Plans to give you a hope and a future.

I then had a picture of a big oil rig, massive drill thing and it felt like it was a picture of how God wanted you to drill down into his goodness, deeply anchoring you and increasing your faith.

A reminder to not give up. And also that He was the power behind the drilling too. So you can press into Him and trust him for the rest.

Don’t be distracted by the circumstance  but hold tightly to the truth that HE IS GOOD. 

Also, she is no fool who puts her faith in a mighty king. Don’t be afraid to believe and look foolish in the worlds eyes.

This word and picture has been one that has encouraged me and reminded me of who and whose I am and who God is, and he is trustworthy, he is good, no matter what’s going on in my life and wherever I am at, I can go back to him. 

I was at a conference last year, I think, and as they shared prophetic words, they encouraged us that if they heard a word and it fit us and our circumstances, we could receive it for ourselves, so if this fit for you, feel free to receive it too as an encouragement from your heavenly Father.

Two other situations where the prophetic has had a significant impact on me include a couple of experiences. Just over a year ago, I went to America and had the privilege to have some prophetic prayer ministry at Bethel Church and the International House of Prayer. The words were recorded, so we could go back and listen to them as many times as we like, so they are on my trusty phone. These were from people who had no idea who I was or where I had come from and while they were immensely encouraging at the time, also were a bit strange, and I wasn’t quite sure how they sat with me. Listening to them in the months later, I have a much better understanding of what God was saying and am so encouraged by God’s perspective being so much beyond my own.

More recently, some big personal changes happened in my life which were surprising and unexpected. They were really hard but in God’s wonderful way, he started speaking. First a friend sent an email, then another had a word, someone sent a text out of the blue and another called me. In and of themselves, each were lovely and encouraging words and pictures, but together, wow, God is amazing! The themes were similar, the timing was extraordinary, and together they were such an immense blessing. They kept me going where I wanted to give up and reminded me that God sees me and has made me a certain way for a reason and I can trust him in me.

They encourage me to not lose my cool as much as I would like to when things don’t go as I thought they were going, or should be going, or I would like them to be going….

Equally too, I love it when God gives me a word or a picture for someone else. I would love to get more because I know what an immense encouragement they have been for me, and I would love to be a part of God blessing others in that way. I am so grateful that individually and as a church we are exploring that more. It’s such a treat to me to get a word or picture for others, because I receive the gift of learning something new and special about that person that I might not normally have known, and I am reminded of how God sees them. I probably didn’t know that before, but what if we looked around at each other and saw each other how God sees and loves us all. How would that change how we thought, felt acted, responded to people and situations? I have been caught out more than once and so love seeing a glimpse of what God has made us all to be.

1 Corinthians 14:3 says that it is for strengthening, encouragement and comfort, and we can go back to God’s word and weight it up accordingly. It’s meant to be done in love and from a place of love.

So for me, I will keep digging deep into God’s goodness, for myself and for others, and will keep learning about how God speaks to us today. I look forward to seeing my understanding continuing to grow and seeing how a word or impression can bless others.  It’s a learning, humbling processes but so rewarding to see others blessed and see the life changing impact it can have to see God working in and through us. 2 Corinthians 4 that we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all surpassing power is from God and not from us, that we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

There’s so much than we see or understand and we are part of a much bigger story that’s of God’s love and compassion for his people. I don’t understand as much about God, myself and others as I would like to, but that’s ok- it keeps me learning, humble and curious and keen to know more of all that God has in store for us.

Telling our Stories

 

I am writing a talk for church at the moment which has got me thinking about pretty much everything in and around the topic related to it. There’s a lot of brainstorming and praying, a bit of attempted chatting to anyone close by who might be open to listening and helpful feedback. I need a couple of weeks just to sit and dream, write and document all the things that are to come this year, or might be able to come. So many possibilities and opportunities. Last year was a real year in practically processing what do I want and where am I going in my life, in a way that I have never had to before. It was hard, heartbreaking in new breaking ways that cracked and broke me in ways that had never been broken before, but also it seems I have been put back together in a whole new way that I never would have imagined. It’s just the beginning, but there’s lots of hope and I have a whole lot of new faith and trust in how God has made me, God and those around me to see life with a fresh perspective. I am immeasurably grateful. 

 

So. While I continue to have endless questions, not enough time, headspace, few answers, or well, other opportunities that I am thoroughly enjoying doing, this year has started with some of my favourites and I am hopeful, and open handed with how God will shape the year. It’s going be fun.

As I have been brainstorming for the talk, something we have been asked specifically to share is stories. But stories of ourselves, well, for me anyway, always involve others and aren’t lived in isolation. There’s usually someone else involved. In my work confidentiality is a big thing. We are asked to protect identities and ensure that the people we are caring for are indeed cared for and respected in their journey wherever they are at. Previous study set the tone as well, so I am quite careful where I use my training, inside and outside of work. My story then, seems to disappear into how it bumps up against the lives and stories of others, so mine becomes more about theirs, when push comes to shove. So, I am having fun discovering stories that I can share that would be helpful both here and as I share in the talk I am giving. Learning what that might look like is a new thing, and funny to see how some things are helping with that process. For example, at our home group, it is now the norm to have an icebreaker- a fun question that everyone needs to answer. I can usually find something to share, but it’s not till about halfway through the night when I remember a truly good answer. The most recent was ‘what was your most awkward moment?’ I came up with one, but it wasn’t till halfway through the evening when I remembered one of my most awkward moments, almost of my life had happened earlier last year. Talk about blocking it out! Fortunately God stories don’t really have the same parameters in many ways (some ways, but not all!), and God is gentle and gracious in how he cares for us and lives our stories in and through us.

 

So I know what I am going to talk about, and am slowing digging up some moments from life that will hopefully be helpful to all who hear. And will see what this year starts to look like in all it’s people, stories and goodness.